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"In the end, it doesn't matter how many breaths you took but how many moments took your breath away."

empire state of mind.

empire state of mind.

i'll remember these times

i'll remember these times

embrace it all

embrace it all

my little furry buddha

my little furry buddha
Proverbs 31:30
Jeremiah 29:11
Romans 9:25


thugz ferr lyfeee

thugz ferr lyfeee

fearfully and wonderfully made

fearfully and wonderfully made

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free falling

free falling

such a tourist

such a tourist

live well, laugh often.

live well, laugh often.

oh heyyy spanish.

oh heyyy spanish.

ain't no sunshine when you're gone.

ain't no sunshine when you're gone.

shorrrty.

shorrrty.

oh, how i love us.

oh, how i love us.

i love lindsey!

i love lindsey!

dreamland.

dreamland.

rocket launcher, best friend

rocket launcher, best friend

somewhere beyond the sea

somewhere beyond the sea

there's no "i" in team...but there's an "i" in WIN!

there's no "i" in team...but there's an "i" in WIN!

the price of beauty.

the price of beauty.

you're my cuppycake.

you're my cuppycake.

this is what good times look like.

this is what good times look like.

catybug

catybug

out where the sun shines.

out where the sun shines.

sweet like key lime pie.

sweet like key lime pie.

bus rides are the bombb.

bus rides are the bombb.

all that i'm after is a life full of laughter.

all that i'm after is a life full of laughter.

i absolutley adore you

i absolutley adore you

y e s .

y e s .

our sunday best.

our sunday best.

let's be friends when we're all old.

let's be friends when we're all old.

forever & always

forever & always

the two musketeers.

the two musketeers.

lovely ladies

lovely ladies

whata doll.

whata doll.

things go swimmingly

things go swimmingly

unbreakable.

unbreakable.

It's A Wonderful Life

It's A Wonderful Life

let's hear it for the girls

let's hear it for the girls

"We, we don't, we don't sweat we glisten 'cause we're women, say it, say it, say it."

"We, we don't, we don't sweat we glisten 'cause we're women, say it, say it, say it."

around the campfire.

around the campfire.

like cats and dogs.

like cats and dogs.

Hun er min skinnende stjerne .

Hun er min skinnende stjerne .

seester frannnd.

seester frannnd.

check us out.

check us out.

Pine Cove is where it's at.

Pine Cove is where it's at.

i [heart] awkward pictures.

i [heart] awkward pictures.

your love is strong.

your love is strong.

i'm alive again.

i'm alive again.
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oh glorious day.

oh glorious day.

some memories are just perfect.

some memories are just perfect.

this is how we do it.

this is how we do it.

lover boy.

lover boy.

sit back and wade through the daylight.

sit back and wade through the daylight.

Wrap You Up & Take You Home.

Wrap You Up & Take You Home.

To See You Smile...

To See You Smile...

we're totes adorb.

we're totes adorb.

you bring out the weirdest in me.

you bring out the weirdest in me.

Friday, July 31, 2009

this stupid, sinking dream.

unrealistic.
that's what everyone else tells me.
"It's just not going to work. There's a one-in-a-million chance of it, and you're not that one."
and i almost believed them, for a while.
sure, there's a one-in-a-million chance,
sure, i'm not a kid starlet with famous parents and a heap of money,
sure, i can't draw, or sew, or sketch, or hem, or do any of that stuff that is deemed nesscary to succeed.
but why can't i be that one?
who says i can't make my own way?
why can't i learn those things now, is it so important that i know them for years?

i say these things, but i don't believe them. my last, small hope of a life beyond ordinary is fading fast, and will soon be gone. if i was meant for this, it would've happened earlier, right? i wouldn't be sitting here in small-town Texas, writing a blog to people who don't care, don't read, and won't ever appreciate my words. What is so special about those people, that they get a chance at something bigger in life, and why doesn't it happen to me? Sometimes I feel like i'm on top of the world, and then i look down, and i'm only three feet above the ground. I put on something that i'm sure will get me noticed, but all people see is the next girl over. i'm skipped over, ignored, passed around, and looked down upon. i'm nothing special. i have a dream, but so do millions of other girls, and they're the ones with the power, status, and influence enough to make something of it. if i can't be who i long to be, then who do i be? when i die, will the only people remembering me be my friends and family? i can't bear to think about the fact that i will probably not ever become someone who the world will remember, simply because there are those who are in line with the same dream, and they are at the front, and me? the very back. i don't have a rags-to-riches story. i've lived in the same place in the same house with the same people all my life. my friends are the greaest thing and yet they are nothing like me. they don't, can't, won't understand why i wouldn't want to just grow up, go to a well-known Texas college, get married right out of college, settle down near the family, and have 3 children that are named Madison, Blake, and Emily. Personally, i cannot think of a more dull, lifeless, and boring life than that of the All-American family.
I'm looking for a chance, looking for a shot, looking towards my goal and stretching and reaching untill i just can't take it anymore. i may not be anything special, but i don't believe that the Lord wouold put this desire so strongly in my heart unless He was intending to do something with it.
So for now, i better go take those sewing lessons.



Life is so beautiful, but it's also very unfair.

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