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"In the end, it doesn't matter how many breaths you took but how many moments took your breath away."

empire state of mind.

empire state of mind.

i'll remember these times

i'll remember these times

embrace it all

embrace it all

my little furry buddha

my little furry buddha
Proverbs 31:30
Jeremiah 29:11
Romans 9:25


thugz ferr lyfeee

thugz ferr lyfeee

fearfully and wonderfully made

fearfully and wonderfully made

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free falling

free falling

such a tourist

such a tourist

live well, laugh often.

live well, laugh often.

oh heyyy spanish.

oh heyyy spanish.

ain't no sunshine when you're gone.

ain't no sunshine when you're gone.

shorrrty.

shorrrty.

oh, how i love us.

oh, how i love us.

i love lindsey!

i love lindsey!

dreamland.

dreamland.

rocket launcher, best friend

rocket launcher, best friend

somewhere beyond the sea

somewhere beyond the sea

there's no "i" in team...but there's an "i" in WIN!

there's no "i" in team...but there's an "i" in WIN!

the price of beauty.

the price of beauty.

you're my cuppycake.

you're my cuppycake.

this is what good times look like.

this is what good times look like.

catybug

catybug

out where the sun shines.

out where the sun shines.

sweet like key lime pie.

sweet like key lime pie.

bus rides are the bombb.

bus rides are the bombb.

all that i'm after is a life full of laughter.

all that i'm after is a life full of laughter.

i absolutley adore you

i absolutley adore you

y e s .

y e s .

our sunday best.

our sunday best.

let's be friends when we're all old.

let's be friends when we're all old.

forever & always

forever & always

the two musketeers.

the two musketeers.

lovely ladies

lovely ladies

whata doll.

whata doll.

things go swimmingly

things go swimmingly

unbreakable.

unbreakable.

It's A Wonderful Life

It's A Wonderful Life

let's hear it for the girls

let's hear it for the girls

"We, we don't, we don't sweat we glisten 'cause we're women, say it, say it, say it."

"We, we don't, we don't sweat we glisten 'cause we're women, say it, say it, say it."

around the campfire.

around the campfire.

like cats and dogs.

like cats and dogs.

Hun er min skinnende stjerne .

Hun er min skinnende stjerne .

seester frannnd.

seester frannnd.

check us out.

check us out.

Pine Cove is where it's at.

Pine Cove is where it's at.

i [heart] awkward pictures.

i [heart] awkward pictures.

your love is strong.

your love is strong.

i'm alive again.

i'm alive again.
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oh glorious day.

oh glorious day.

some memories are just perfect.

some memories are just perfect.

this is how we do it.

this is how we do it.

lover boy.

lover boy.

sit back and wade through the daylight.

sit back and wade through the daylight.

Wrap You Up & Take You Home.

Wrap You Up & Take You Home.

To See You Smile...

To See You Smile...

we're totes adorb.

we're totes adorb.

you bring out the weirdest in me.

you bring out the weirdest in me.

Sunday, March 21, 2010

yo tengo grande problemo.

Jealousy is a nasty thing,
and it's eating me alive.

I try not to be discouraged by other people's accomplishments, looks, grades, ect., but it just gets to you sometimes. I do realize that everyone is made differently and everyone is beautiful, smart, and talented in their own ways, and I have my ways, but I can't help wishing, "Why can't I look like her? Why can't I be like them? What am I doing wrong?"
It is so easy to fall into the jealousy trap, as I've realized these past few days. I went through this majorlyonce before, and I got over it, reminding myself everyday of my accomplishments, my favorite features, and my talents. I slowly moved through wanting to be like someone else, and I began to feel more comfortable in my own skin, more comfortable with what I can do. But then, I stopped telling myself that I was special. I stopped telling myself that what I had was worth something to the world, and I stopped remembering all that I've achieved. And I found myself spiraling back into the mouth of the green monster-jealousy. There is a sort of arrogance that keeps you out of being jealous. It is not arrogance exactly, because you should never feel like you are better than someone else, but it is the knowledge that you are just as good as them. You know that just because someone can take a better picture, get a better grade, or live a more adventurous life doesn't mean that you are worthless and will always be less than that someone. You have your own way of doing things, and if you like someone else's way, don't be jealous, simply look at what you like about it and try to adapt some of the qualitites into your own way. I have been struggling with this lately--I have just been getting jealous, no adaption even tried.
Even writing this post has helped me find my way out of jealousy a little bit. I know that throughout my life, there will always be someone to be jealous of, and I now realize that by reminding myself of my strengths and all the things I like about myself, I can be who I was meant to be with a clear head, one not filled with longings of another's hair, eyes, skills, or anything else that I think better than mine.

Thursday, March 18, 2010

"you've got a friend in me."

My friends are the best, sweetest, generous, and most thoughtful people in the entire world.
I say that because they took time out of their busy lives to plan a surprise birthday celebration for me, my sister, and a friend with a nearby birthday, and it was quite possibly the kindest thing anyone has ever done for me in a looong time!
I was sitting on my couch, watching Hannah Montana and feeling like such a freak for not having anything to do on my birthday, and then when my parents told me that they were taking me out to dinner, I was actually excited to finally have something to do. Then, all of the sudden, two of my best friends in thewntire world bust through the back door screaming Happy Birthday, and I almost have a heart attack, but it was the best feeling in the world. I literally couldn't stop smiling for like, 15 minutes. We pick up another friend, and we head to the restaurant that they planned to take us to, and just when I thought that there were no more surprises, 7 ore of our friends are waiting for us there! I was so overwhelemed and thankful and amazed that they had been doing this all without us knowing, and all I could do was grin. On top of all of this, the friend who had done most of the planning insisted on paying for the three of us with birthdays, and even though I really didn't feel entirely okay with that, I just had to let it go and know that it was my birthday and she wanted to treat me, and I should just accept it! Anyways, they gave me gifts as well, which just added to the evening, as gifts always do. :)
We walked around the mall afterwards and I was still in shock of how much thought went into the planning of this, and how sweet everyone was to do that for us. Then, another big surprise came when I found out that everyone was coming over and spending the night!! It was so much fun, and as I write this, four of us are the only ones still left up, and I am just reliving how much fun tonight was. Thank you all for making the big 1-5 so special. :)
I LOVE EACH AND EVERY ONE OF YOU!

Saturday, March 13, 2010

oklahoma, where the wind comes sweeping down the plain.

so today i am going to oklahoma city, oklahoma.
i am not excited.
and that's all there is to it.

Wednesday, March 3, 2010

let's get a reality check, please.

You know those people that post things like "I wish I could go back before everything went wrong" , "I have tons of homework-FML", or "I'm sick of all of this crap, it's making my life horible." on their Facebook statuses or Myspace updates or whatever? THEY ANNOY ME BEYOND BELIEF. We as Americans, living in Boerne, which, while it may be a little dull, is nice and safe and clean and better than a lot of other places. And we HAVE NO IDEA how lucky we are. Drama at school will pass, get over it. It is truly not that big of a deal. I'm so sick of hearing people complain about things that others would count as blessings, like the fact that our school cares enough about us having a future to give us homework and tests to help us learn, grow, and be able to do whatever we want with our futures. Did you know that out of the 11 million childen in Africa, only 18% of them graduate from primary education, which is to us, Middle School? They have no way of acquiring a job, they can't use knowledge to figure out life problems-they're on their own, and so many of them long to be educated, while we sit here and complain about the people who take time out of their own days to teach us and help us achieve the next highest degree of education. I'm not saying I enjoy the homework, or the tests, or the long, boring hours spent sitting in school, but i look past all of that and see the big picture. I appreciate what my teaches are doing for me, and I wish that more of my peers would do the same. We look so ungrateful and immature when we diss the people who are only there to help us.
Also, griping about "how everything turned to crap" is just plain aggravating. The people who do this are basically saying, "I'm so naive that I can't even see that my PERFECT, BLESSING-FILLED life really doesn't suck, but since I think it sucks, being so ignorant, I'm going to tell everyone about how much I hate my life, even though my "problems" are many other peoples' miracles." Yes, this is directed at all of the people who have ever said "FML" at a problem so minor as ruining their hair. & Yes, I AM NOT saying that I've never had a bad day, or something that I wish hadn't happened, or gotten mad over something miniscule. I have had MANY bad days, I have wished MULTIPLE times that things didn't happen, and I have gotten upset over tiny things too many times to even count. But the thing is, I'm starting to see how stupid all of that is. We are so lucky and we don't even realize it!!!! We could be in India, forced to hide under long black shawls and constantly told that men are and always will be better than us. We could be in Russia, a starving, toothless homeless child left to freeze out in the blizzarding snow. We could be in Africa, malnurished, infected with HIV/AIDS, and watching our children die before us, just waiting for our turn to come. I think that it is time that we ask ourselves, "Are our problems REALLY that big of a deal? Would we rather be doing seemingly pointless homework, or standing outside a schoolbuilding, yearning to be allowed to go inside but never getting the chance to? Does a ruined hairdo even compare to a death-stricken family?"
For everyone reading this, I don't want you to ever think I'm a hypocrite if I ever accidentally complain about something that isn't that bad. I am human, I have lived in this well off town my entire life--I don't know anything different. I know for a fact that I WILL, sometime in the near future, be angry about something that I know in my heart I am lucky to have. But I am saying right now that I am making a conscious effort to be more grateful and appreciative of the things I've been blessed with, even when they don't seem like a blessing. All I have to do is think about the kids who don't have them, and how very blessed they would be if they did.

Tuesday, March 2, 2010

untitled.

I have unanswered prayers
I have trouble I wish wasn't there
And I have asked a thousand ways
That You would take my pain away
That You would take my pain away

I am trying to understand
How to walk this weary land
Make straight the paths that crooked lie
Oh Lord, before these feet of mine
Oh Lord, before these feet of mine

When my world is shaking
Heaven stands
When my heart is breaking
I never leave Your hands

When You walked upon the Earth
You healed the broken, lost, and hurt
I know You hate to see me cry
One day You will set all things right
Yea, one day You will set all things right

When my world is shaking
Heaven stands
When my heart is breaking
I never leave Your hands

Your hands
Your hands that shape the world
Are holding me, they hold me still
Your hands that shape the world
Are holding me, they hold me still

When my world is shaking
Heaven stands
When my heart is breaking
I never leave You when...

My world is shaking
Heaven stands
When my heart is breaking
I never leave...
I never leave Your hands

Your Hands
-JJ HELLER

Monday, March 1, 2010

newfound love.

Joe Purdy is amazing. I mean AMAZING, amazing. I could listen to his songs all.day.long. He is seriously up there with Coldplay, John Mayer, and Jillian Edwards. Yeah, those are my four favorites. Coldplay, John Mayer, Jillian Edwards, and JOE PURDY.
here are my favorites of his that e v e r y o n e should buy:

I Love The Rain The Most When It Stops
San Jose
Suitcase
Mary
The City
Just Can't Seem to Get It Right Today

There are a bunch more that I haven't heard yet, but I am buying them on iTunes at this very second. If they're Joe, I know I'll love them!

[seriously, listen. I'm not exaggerating.]
:)