Just for looking,, the old days

I was looking through the pictures on my computer and I was amazed to see how many pictures and memories I had forgotten about! The above pictures are some that were only from last year or two years ago, and yet they are hidden way back in my head. I wanted to pull them out again, so whenever I look at this blog, I can no longer forget.

These Things Will Change.

People tend to surprise me. I am a mix of expectations, I will often think that I can trust someone to always act a certain way, and then they do something to change that, and suddenly I always think to expect inconsistency from them. I do not know why some people act the way that they do, and I even am confused about the way that I act sometimes. I feel that humans are programmed to break boundaries, shatter expectations, and completely throw off the balance of what their friends and family think of them. You can honestly think, even swear, that you know how someone will react, because of their reactions in the past, and then, all of the sudden, what you were expecting doesn't happen and you have absolutley no idea what to do about it. I have found that when people act a different way than normal, it's not always for the better, and it's not always for the worse. Though I have been blessed many times because of someone's change of heart, I have also been hurt far too many times to continue trying to predict how people will act. No matter how dependable, constant, and un-changing they have been in the past, at some point, everyone will make a change in their behavior that will break a friend's trust, shatter their family's respect, and completley turn the course of their life around. I realized today that the best way to protect myself from not being confused, angry, or hurt by a change someone has made, is simply to expect the unexpected from them. When I have no expectations, I can't be disappointed, and that's the truth.

Sisterly Friendship.

Anyone who knows me knows that I am obsessed with the Olsen twins. I think that Mary-Kate and Ashley are just so cool, and they are so supportive of the other. Being a twin, I always want my sister and I to have that same type of relationship. (And anyone who knows us knows that that is not always achieved..)

My hope for my sister and I is that once we grow out of this stage where we fight constantly with each other, that we will realize how lucky we are to have someone who has always been there and will always be there. I love her, now I just have to like her!

Words From the Wise.

I truly believe that there are some human beings that are simply...wise. They have so much to say and put their thoughts into such elegant-sounding sentences that I get excited just looking at the words. These are, or so I believe, deeply inspirational and lovely to my ears. I hope you enjoy them as much as I do. :)

"In the end, it's not going to matter how many breaths you took, but how many moments took your breath away."

-Edie Sedgwick

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"When one door closes, another opens; but we often look so long and so regretfully upon the closed door that we do not see the one that has opened for us."

-Alexander Graham Bell

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"For beautiful eyes, look for the good in others; for beautiful lips, speak only words of kindness; and for poise, walk with the knowledge that you are never alone."

-Audrey Hepburn

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"I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go. Things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they're right. You believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together."

-Marilyn Monroe

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"Fashion is not something that exists in dresses only. Fashion is in the sky, in the street, fashion has to do with ideas, the way we live, what is happening."

-Coco Chanel

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"The most beautiful discovery true friends make is that they can grow separately without growing a p a r t."

-Elisabeth Foley

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"A friend knows the song in my heart and sings it to me when my memory fails."

-Donna Roberts

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"You have to walk carefully in the beginning of love; the running across fields into your lover's arms can only come later when you're sure they won't laugh if you trip."

-Jonathan Carroll

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"Do I love you because you're beautiful, or are you beautiful because I love you?"

-Richard Rodgers

growing dreams.

i am nobody's idea of someone who would be interested in fashion. from a tiny texas town, haven't even graduated high school, and so no one believes that this could be what i want to do. but it is! oh, it is, i want to be in this business more than anything else. i can't take Vogue-worthy photographs, i can't afford designer duds and have no cute little thrift store to pick up vintage items from, and i am still figuring out how to make this blog look halfway decent, but i have such a strong dream inside of me, it's all i want and i will strain to reach it! everything in me yearns to be somewhere where i can be more inspired, where i can learn techniques and terms about design that i cannot even imagine living here. parsons is my d r e a m school, i would give anything to be accepted there! though i have extra challenges that a girl growing up in nyc with parents in the industry doesn't have, i know i have equal or more heart, and i believe that by trying, i can do anything, anything at all, including fashion.

ab-tastic!

I am not a twilight fan (at all), but i know one thing for sure-i will go back to see New Moon a hundred times if it means that i get to stare at those abs of Taylor Lautner's all night long!


My sister is a die-hard Edward fan, but i personally think that he is extremley unattractive and constantly looks like he got back from smoking pot. I went to the movie with a couple of my friends, and by the end of the movie we were all in agreement- T.L.'s body is the greatest thing we've ever seen.


If you still don't know what i'm talking about, just check the picture--

see what i mean? :)

3Girls ((remake))

This time, I'm not going to let my insecuritites and problems get in the way of the writing of this post. I've decided to take a new outlook on my friendships and other relationships-I'm going to fous on the good, because truthfully, there is so much more good than bad when it comes to the people I interact with, and I have no room to complain. :)

1. You are amazing! You confront me when we have a problem, instead of just letting it sit and sit and neither one of us knows exactly how the other is feeling. I am HONORED that you feel comfortable enough with me that you can come forward and tell me, "Hey, I was confused and hurt by this, and I want to work it out." That shows a mark of a true friend, and I am lucky to have you as my 2nd sister. I will never again doubt our friendship or try to push blame on you! Thanks again, sis! :)

2. You are so funny & sweet & easy to get along with! I can't wait to develop our friendship more and see where your crazy personality leads us. I love the fact that you haven't "grown up too fast", because so many of us know things that our parents would be shocked that we know! Some people call it "innocence", but I think you are just a great influence. :)

3. We might've been going through a bit of a rough patch for a while, but now that everything's all good, I can see what I was missing! You are, always have been, and always will be one of my closest friends, and I can't wait to go to camp with you this summer! You have taught me more than you could ever know, and I love you for that! :)


Love you all to Heaven and back!!

my dancing refugee.

So there is this girl who never lets me down, who always makes me laugh, and occasionally makes me want to slap her upside the face :)
...but then she makes me laugh again, so it's all good!

I've known her for NINE YEARS, can you believe that? I can't! We've gone through elementary, middle, and now, high school together, and I don't know what I'm going to do when we go off to seperate colleges! Each year our friendship gets stronger and stronger, and we still have plenty of time for it to grow even more. I can tell her anything, and she is my BFFAEAE (Best Friend Forever And Ever And Ever). We are sitting in this little room right now with some other strange, loner kids like us (haha, just kidding), and she asked me to write this blog about her, and it is my pleasure, i just love her that much :)

So, basically what I am saying is that I don't know what I would do without her, and I know everyone says that, but seriously. How are you supposed to go more than half of your life knowing someone, and then suddenly, they are not in your life anymore? I couldn't do it! Which means that we HAVE to stay in touch till the day we die. And then we will go to Heaven and can talk everyday for eternity. :)

Yepp, so that's it. I know she's reading this, so just to let you know, i adore you,
Elizabeth Ann Alamillo :)