i wannnttt the beachhhhhh.

i have never, ever ever ever considered myself a beach type of person. I was always convinced that I loved the mountains, the cold, the snow.
Something changed.

ALLLLLL I can think about is how much I want to be at the beach! And although I would be eh, okay with a cruddy Texas beach, I LONG for Rosemary Beach in Florida. It is seriously the most relaxing place I think I've ever been to, and I seriously need that right now.

Goodness gracious, if I don't get some sun I think my pasty skin will start to blend in with the white walls of my room....

:/

If It Kills Me - Jason Mraz. look it up.

Hello, tell me you know
Yeah, you figured me out
Something gave it away
And it would be such a beautiful moment
To see the look on your face
To know that I know that you know now

And baby that's a case of my wishful thinking
You know nothing
Cause you and I
Why, we go carrying on for hours, on and
We get along much better
Than you and your boyfriend

Well all I really wanna do is love you
A kind much closer than friends use
But I still can't say it after all we've been through
And all I really want from you is to feel me
As the feeling inside keeps building
And I will find a way to you if it kills me
If it kills me

Well how long, can I go on like this,
Wishing to kiss you,
Before I rightly explode?
This double life I lead isn't healthy for me
In fact it makes me nervous
If I get caught I could be risking it all

Baby there's a lot that I miss
In case I'm wrong

Well all I really wanna do is love you
A kind much closer than friends use
But I still can't say it after all we've been through
And all I really want from you is to feel me
As the feeling inside keeps building
And I will find a way to you if it kills me
If it kills me

If I should be so bold
I'd ask you to hold my heart in your hand
Tell you from the start how I've longed to be your man
But I never said a word
I guess I'm gonna miss my chance again

All I really wanna do is love you
A kind much closer than friends use
But I still can't say it after all we've been through
And all I really want from you is to feel me
As the feeling inside keeps building
And I will find a way to you if it kills me
If it kills me
If it kills me
I think it might kill me

And all I really want from you is to feel me
It's a feeling inside that keeps building
And I will find a way to you if it kills me
If it kills me
If it kills me
It might kill me

i never thought i'd say that i love a jonas brother

but now i officially can. Ever since Nick broke out on his own, there have been song after song after song pouring out of him that are not only beautiful, but easy to sing and hum along to. He seriously reminds me of a young John Mayer. I wish that he hadn't started out as part of the JoBros because I feel like now alot of people have labeled him for doing only that particular type of cheesy, mega-pop stuff, and he on his own is so much better than that! Here are some of my favorite lyrics...

Give Love a Try:

You are like driving on a Sunday
You are like taking off on Monday
You, oh you, you're a dream come true.

And you can think that I'm a fool for falling over you
But tell me what can I do to prove to you
That it's not that hard to do?


Olive & An Arrow:

It's an olive,
And an arrow in the back
You leave me breathless
It's what keeps me coming back.



Keeeeeeep it up, Nick! :)

<3

for the right reasons.

Ealier this week in Kerville, there was a brutal car crash that killed four teen boys, some of which went to my high school. They were only sophomores, and it is a terrible, awful tragedy.
Although I am extremeley sad by what happened, and I feel deeply for their families, I am not going to pretend like I knew them and loved them, and now am depressed by their death, which would not be accurate. I didn't know any of them, so I'm not going to pretend like I did, which is what I see so many of my classmates doing. As I was looking through Facebook, I saw so many statuses saying things like "Wear blue tomorow in honor of R. K. M. M.". This would be coming from a seventh or eighth grader who I'm pretty sure has never met any of the guys in their life. The library at my school is open only for grief counseling right now, and so many students are simply going in there to "skip class". I'm not saying that you had to know them to show your respect for them, but don't you think it shows more respect to let the people who truly knew them to have their time to grieve? If you're "grieving" for the wrong reasons, re-think, because the people who were truly impacted by this tragedy need some room. If you're getting counseled but you didn't really even know who the boys were, you're just doing it because everyone else is, you look fakey, and everyone can tell. You're also being extremely disrespectful if you're using their deaths as an excuse to get out of class. Think about that before you "wear blue". Are you doing it for the right reasons? Or because everybody else is?

figuring things out.

1. I love you. I can't stand you. You make me so mad and fill me with so much happiness all at the same time. I don't get you, I'll never get you, but I want to understand you.

2. You're there for me, you'll always be there, but I'm beginning to question whether or not that's a good thing.

3. YOU'VE SAVED ME. Without you, I'd be in a mass of salty tears right now. I'd be clinging to past memories to fill my heart, but with you, I make new ones. I simply don't know where I'd be without you.

4. You confuse me. I think we're all good, and then I'm questioning where we stand.

5. I hate that you hate me. I wish it were different, but whatever.

6. I know that you are going to be in my life for quite some time, and I can't decide if I'm alright with that.

7. I hope that someday you will find someone that will make you happy, because right now it kills me to see you in the situation you're in. I can't do anything about it, and I'm heartbroken for you.

8. You live off of fruits and vegetables, and it's making me sick. I don't know how to talk to you. I don't know how to get through to you. I don't know if I'm supposed to help you or ignore the problem. But I just need to tell you, you're killing yourself, and taking my spirit down in the process.

9. You make me feel like the most special girl in the world. I love talking to you, and none of my friends even know who you are yet!

10. I can't stop staring at you. Please, I'm begging you, go to a different youth so I can focus!

11. People talk about you, but I'm not one to judge. I hope you someday stand up for yourself instead of just silently taking the crap that people throw at you.

12. I am unbelievably jealous of you. Let's leave it at that.

13. I want to give you a hug, because you seem so alone.

14. You wear these...shoes. And I want to rip them off your feet. Seriously, they're the only things I can concentrate on in class, and they make my eyes bleed. Not that I'd ever tell you that...

15. I simply cannot figure you out! Where are your values? What did you grow up hearing from your parents? Do you even know the difference between right and wrong?

16. I am (to quote Twilight) DAZZLED by you. You you you you you, but it's all physical. Inside, you've got a heart of stone and a mouth dirtier than mud.

17. I feel for you. It breaks my heart to see someone with your potential throwing it all away. I wish you knew how much we all care!

18. You, reading this. Yes you. No, I will NOT tell you who any of these people are. Learn to live with it. :)

ahhh, it's another quote post. :)

I seem to find an endless supply of quotes that I can't get enough of. There's too many to put on my mirror, but I don't want to let them go to waste, so here's yet another blog post entirely made up of fabulous quotes. :)



"I love my past. I love my present. I'm not ashamed of what I've had, and I'm not sad because I have it no longer." ~ Colette, French writer

"Happiness comes of the capacity to feel deeply, to enjoy simply, to think freely, to risk life, to be needed." ~ Storm Jameson

"Whoever is happy will make others happy." ~ Anne Frank

"The best way to succeed is to discover what you love and find a way to offer it to others." ~ Oprah

"Warriors take chances. Like everyone else, they fear failing,but they refuse to let fear control them." ~ Japanese Proverb

"We do not believe in ourselves until someone reveals that deep inside of us something is valuable, worth listening to, worthy of our touch, sacred to our touch. Once we believe in ourselves we can risk curiosity, wonder, spontaneous delight, or any experience that reveals the human spirit." ~ E. E. Cummings

"Gratitude will bring more into our lives immediately." ~ The Secret

"Unless we change directions, we are likely to end up where we are going." ~ Chinese Proverb

"Happiness is when what you think, what you say, and what you do are in harmony." ~ Gandhi

"I'm so astonished at God's love, and I want to be captured by it and invite others into that process with me. God is good, and I want to celebrate His goodness, even in the midst of the confusion and difficulties of life and unanswerable questions." ~ Steven Curtis Chapman

"Dream no small dreams; for these have no power to move the hearts of men." ~ Goethe